home sweet, umm homes?

Yesterday I left home, to go home.  I left my family of 53 girls on my hall to be with my parents and sister.  It's weird realizing you have to two families.  My family is and always has been such a blessing.  They are so loving, supportive, and beautiful.  I truly do not know how I would have turned out with anyone else raising me.  Our relationship is changing as I grow up, but it is only becoming better.  I love being at my house. I love being with them.

But now I have this other family.  This family at my school.  The friends I've meet there have impacted me more than I could have ever imagined possible.   They are so loving, supportive, and beautiful.  I can't imagine surviving this year or any of college for that matter without them.  They have become my family. I love being at my school.  I love being with them.

"When I'm home, I miss school; when I'm at school I miss home."

I've heard people say this multiple times.  I've been one of them, but tonight I'm learning that this is a horrible mind set to have.  I should be joyful in whichever place I'm in because not most people have what I do in these relationships.  I have two homes; some people have none.  I have two families; some people have none.  And that's not something I'm willing to take for granted. 

more than enough.

For as long as I can remember, I've wanted to do something great with my life.  Unique, right?  I'm a month into my second semester of college and I have less of an idea of what I want to do with my life than I ever have.  "that's normal."  "don't worry, I changed my major TONS of times."  I know it's supposed to be comforting, but it isn't.  What's wrong with not knowing what you want to do with your life?  I'm not convinced that anyone ever really does know, but I'm convinced that that's okay.  For now, all I can do is wake up every morning and pray that I follow what God wants of me that day.  But is that all I can ever do?  I hope so.  


I have this role model, her name is Ellen Degeneres.  I believe she has wisdom that we can all learn from.  She lives her life with a sense of simplicity. 

"For me, it's that I contributed, ... That I'm on this planet doing some good and making people happy. That's to me the most important thing, that my hour of television is positive and upbeat and an antidote for all the negative stuff going on in life." 

"I'm on this planet doing some good and making people happy"

       ...when it comes down to it, 

that's all I want from my life.